Archive for September, 2011

Day Dreaming

Today, while commuting to office and looking at the landscapes outside the window a thought flashed in my mind which made me wonder & smile. The thought was “how nice it would be to have a castle like home on a beautiful island somewhere and spending life there with a prince like life partner :)” Too much of day dreaming I know… πŸ˜‰ but whats the harm if it puts a wide smile on your face, especially at the start of the day… rite??


Only one weekly off – Pure injustice

A clumsy mind, sleepy eyed staring at the PC on a lazy Sunday morning…. yeah!! that’s me.

I so feel that having only one weekly off is pure injustice especially with the lazy souls like me who are fond of spending their day without doing anything meaningful and idling time away πŸ˜› πŸ˜€

I mean it (the weekly off) comes and go even before you realizing it’s a day to get some rest. Instead you end up finishing all your pending works, cleaning up the apartment and shopping for the week. Where’s the time to get rest and enjoy the day??? I want at least two days off every week…. And yes, I am jealous of the people working in IT industry who have this luxury and an add on advantage of work from home…!!! God!! are you listening???

In earlier days, necessities were Roti, Kapada aur makan but now three more things have to be added in these list of necessities and those are Mobile Phone, Vehicle (at least a two wheeler) and a laptop/computer with internet connection. No, don’t think that I am exaggerating. Try it if you wish. Go and tell some people that you don’t have any of these 3 things and they will give you that look which says poor chap!! Can’t even afford basic needs of life.

I have had my share of experience about it. Some time ago I didn’t had a laptop of my own and I wasn’t buying one for some of my own reasons. But every time when asked about it I used to tell that I don’t have one and used to get the same pitying look on people’s faces. Earlier I used to think where’s the time to surf net and socialize on net when I have to go to bed by 11:00 pm at max to be able to take the office bus at 6:30 in the morning. But now when I have got my laptop it makes me wonder what I used to do in the evenings when I didn’t had one. Now, I can’t imagine my after office hours without my lappy. πŸ˜›

Same is the case with mobile phone and my scooty. I prefer to drive than walking even to a place which is just half a kilometer away. And as far as mobile phone is concerned, I am so gravely addicted to that thingy that I can’t put that aside even for 5 minutes. Yes, I always keep it handy. It accompanies me everywhere I go, from my room to another, to the kitchen then back to my room. If I don’t find it around I get panicked. It sort of freaks me out when I see around & can’t locate it instantly. Even while sleeping I keep it on my pillow and I myself couldn’t yet figured it out why do I do that as I know none is gonna call me in the middle of the night to have a chit chat!!!! Yet, can’t help it. Ahh!! it’s something to worry about. Right??? Not really, you know the thought of my colleague who sends at least 400 texts daily makes me feel better for myself… πŸ˜›

So, that’s how life has become dependent on these enablers and these enablers have actually become an integral part of our life so much so we can’t even imagine how our life would have been if we didn’t had them.

LIFE… what is life?? It feels like life is a continuous chase… chase for something new, something better, bigger and something more fulfilling. And in this chase, we chase everything forgetting to chase quality life. There are days when we feel we have every reason to be happy and satisfied with life and then there comes a time when that feeling subsides by the feeling of need for something more, something more fruitful, more fulfilling as a successful being and something more to make me feel alive and enjoying life.
I wonder why is it so?? Why do we always crave for more than what we have? Why do we fail to appreciate the blessings which we already have while urging for something else which we want to have? We might be having number of things to be proud about, we might being talked about by people for our achievements, we might be living the kind of life we couldn’t even dream ever, we might have a loving partner, lots of friends & a caring family. Yet we fail to be content. We see others and count their blessings, their achievements and that seems to eradicate our joy and we again start feeling the need to have something more. We dwell on what others have and we don’t but we fail to notice what all we have which others don’t have. Suddenly we give into the urge to have everything. And again, we become dissatisfied with our life. We get involved in the rat race to achieve more, to collect more wealth, to afford all the luxuries of life and while doing that we leave behind the joy of spending time with family and friends, we forget to appreciate a refreshing sunrise, we don’t get time to sit in the porch with a cup of tea and watch the Sun set, we lose the simple pleasure of idling when we just don’t have nothing at all to do and most of all we forget to live the life which has been bestowed upon us by the almighty.Β 

And then there comes a time, when we regret and wish the time to stop. We wish to go back in timeΒ  and live all the life which we screwed while running behind luxuries and fantasies. I won’t say that I am something different in this case. I too am a victim of this continuous want of more and more. I too go through this cycle of feeling happy and satisfied for a week followed by a month of feeling emptiness & uncertainty of my dreams & goals. Today too I found myself entering into this phase and the fight between two sides of my mind (one which tells me to be content of my life as it is now & the other which says you are nothing, you haven’t yet achieved what you are worthy of) made me pen my thoughts down.

Do let me know guys what you think about it?? Do you also feel like this sometimes??